Yesterday, I submitted the requirements to enter Amara in the Star Baby contest in SM Department Store. But now I’m having doubts… I’m not sure if these are nerves. Because I look at the pictures of the previous year’s winners and most of them are foreign-looking babies, the products mostly of a Filipino mom and Caucasian dad. Thus the chances of a baby of pure Filipino ancestry winning are slim, based on these results.
Of course, as her mom, I am convinced my baby is deserving to win. This is not only because she is my baby but because of other people’s favorable comments and Amara’s charm herself. Even people we don’t know – other mallgoers or salespeople at the stores, remark on her cuteness.
One other thing I’m not sure of is my motive in entering her in such a contest. The prize would just be a bonus. Because of our situation, she, being virtually abandoned by her father at one week old then replaced nine months thereafter by another baby by his girlfriend, I would want Amara to have a winning moment. This would be something she could look back to years from now and feel and be affirmed that she IS worth a lot. That despite her father’s actions, SHE IS A WINNER, she is loveable, she is wanted and she is irreplaceable.
I have done everything I can with regards to this contest. I will let God do the rest. And even if she doesn’t win this one, I will find a way and God will provide a way and with a whole lot of prayers, Amara will grow up to be confident of herself, feel loved and be a winner. May she realize
“this is the ultimate reason why you need to like yourself.
Because you have a Father who loves you so much.
You’re more important than all the stars in the sky.
You’re more important than all the galaxies of this universe.
In the heart of God, nothing compares with you.
If He loves you this much, how can you not like yourself?” (from Bo Sanchez)
Despite everything. After all, she is God’s child.